This song is from the film Annapurna(1966) sung by Lataji and picturized on Sharmila Tagore!
The second verse of this song is really close to my heart.Its got deep and meaningful lyrics.
The lyrics goes like this:
dil kee tasallee ke liye,
zoothhee chamak zoothhaa nikhaar
jeewan to sunaa hee rahaa,
sab samaze aayee hain bahaar
kaliyon se koee poochhe to,
hasatee hain yaa ke rotee hain
ayesee bhee baate hotee hain.. ..
ayesee bhee baate hotee hain.. ..
Translation:
Just for the sake of heart,
(I wear a mask of) False shine and false glory,
(My) life has always been empty,
But everyone thought its blossomed like spring,
Did anyone ask the flower buds?
Whether shes smiling or crying?
Such things exist too!!!
Such things exist too!!!
Pain is painted beautifully in the above lines.
Hats off too the lyric writer Mr.Kaifi Azmi!!
There were some real jewels during that era which for sure are missed now in this era of remixes!!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Maa!
She was the best friend I had in my childhood! I called her Maa because my dad called her Maa too and so did my other brothers and sisters. She was my Grandmother.
Simple and very uncomplicated. I and Vicky Bhai (my cousin brother) were her favorite kids in the home.
Those days are memories painted with gold truly.
I and Maa use to go to temple early in the morning.I remember she taught me simple household chores with great love and care.
When I was in fourth standard I with my parents shifted to a new house and Maa was staying with Taiji and Tauji.
While going to school I would travel in a rickshaw and pass the old house and Maa would sit in the balcony early morning every day just to wave at me and Alok in the rickshaw. And then everyday after I school would go and meet her and we would eat samosa’s together. Both of us use to simply love it.
Maa had really pampered me like all the grandparents do.
When I was in eighth standard Maa left us all.That was the first death I had ever seen.By that age I knew no one comes back but I could not believe it that she’s no more!
I remember I kept staring at the dead body for a long time and then papa just took me in the other room.I was hoping she gets up!
For some years I really missed her and she would come in my dreams too.I would be so happy, overwhelmed to see her in my dreams. As if I met her in my real life too.And what was amazing she would talk to me,guide me in whatever was happening in my life. It was unbelievable. Sometimes the dreams look like a greater reality than reality itself.
But as some years passed I don’t see her now in my dreams anymore.
At times I really wish that if she was with us today I could have done so much more for her and be with her.
But she had suffered a lot in her last days and was very ill. So may be god had a better home for her without any pains.
She loved mangoes.Even today at times I think of her while having a mango and in her last days she could not eat mango because of her illness.When I think of this I really feel sad about it.
I still Miss her!!
Simple and very uncomplicated. I and Vicky Bhai (my cousin brother) were her favorite kids in the home.
Those days are memories painted with gold truly.
I and Maa use to go to temple early in the morning.I remember she taught me simple household chores with great love and care.
When I was in fourth standard I with my parents shifted to a new house and Maa was staying with Taiji and Tauji.
While going to school I would travel in a rickshaw and pass the old house and Maa would sit in the balcony early morning every day just to wave at me and Alok in the rickshaw. And then everyday after I school would go and meet her and we would eat samosa’s together. Both of us use to simply love it.
Maa had really pampered me like all the grandparents do.
When I was in eighth standard Maa left us all.That was the first death I had ever seen.By that age I knew no one comes back but I could not believe it that she’s no more!
I remember I kept staring at the dead body for a long time and then papa just took me in the other room.I was hoping she gets up!
For some years I really missed her and she would come in my dreams too.I would be so happy, overwhelmed to see her in my dreams. As if I met her in my real life too.And what was amazing she would talk to me,guide me in whatever was happening in my life. It was unbelievable. Sometimes the dreams look like a greater reality than reality itself.
But as some years passed I don’t see her now in my dreams anymore.
At times I really wish that if she was with us today I could have done so much more for her and be with her.
But she had suffered a lot in her last days and was very ill. So may be god had a better home for her without any pains.
She loved mangoes.Even today at times I think of her while having a mango and in her last days she could not eat mango because of her illness.When I think of this I really feel sad about it.
I still Miss her!!
Gori hain toh Soni hain!
That’s the ideology of beautiful in Indian scenario .I met a group of people from different countries and understood how differently beauty is defined everywhere in the world.
And its more to do with the mental setup of what you think is beautiful; you find it beautiful; good looking and not other way round.
During the British Rule Indians were made to feel inferior to the whites and its then that they developed this concept that white is good and superior. And sadly till date this is the notion for many Indian minds that, “Gori hain toh Soni hain.”
Thanks to Actors like Bipasha Basu and Nandita Das who are seemingly changing the concept of Fair is Beautiful.
So this is to people who think fair is beautiful there’s much more to beauty people, with your eyes you just need to open your minds too and then you might discover that;
BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL TOO!
And its more to do with the mental setup of what you think is beautiful; you find it beautiful; good looking and not other way round.
During the British Rule Indians were made to feel inferior to the whites and its then that they developed this concept that white is good and superior. And sadly till date this is the notion for many Indian minds that, “Gori hain toh Soni hain.”
Thanks to Actors like Bipasha Basu and Nandita Das who are seemingly changing the concept of Fair is Beautiful.
So this is to people who think fair is beautiful there’s much more to beauty people, with your eyes you just need to open your minds too and then you might discover that;
BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL TOO!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Seven Days of Silence!
Heard from a friend about this course of Vipassana and had decided will do it for sure.
The code of discipline when read was scary but I thought it’s doable and was pretty excited about the course.
Reached there with full enthusiasm and charged up. We were given individual rooms and were expected to live in total isolation No mobile phones, No internet connection, total cut off with the outside world.
I wanted some peace of mind and sit and stare at life!
Thought it would be a perfect place and indeed it was but then towards the end I missed my mother terribly.
The meditation done over there takes you deep within and you start realizing the truth beneath the surface level and that was the most beautiful feeling. Something just clicks inside you and you suddenly start getting answers for the questions asked from such a long time. Yes, it happens only with the mediation. To believe it you have to EXPEREINCE it.
My biggest achievement of the course was I stayed with a lizard for two days.I am so horrified of Lizards…!!Now, that’s a real achievement!
And I also spotted a snake in the garden! Shit…!! I was scared to death!!
On the seventh day, I could just not resist being away from my family and I realized how often we take our dear ones so much for granted. I knew in return its only my parents missing me the most. I was missing fighting with my brother and was missing playing with my nephew. Only three more days were left in the course but at that moment all I wanted was to talk to my mom! How silly could I be!
I had loved the course so far but three more days I could not stay!
I convinced myself that sometime later I will complete ten days and left from there on the seventh day!
So seven days of Silence and a lifetime remembrance.
The code of discipline when read was scary but I thought it’s doable and was pretty excited about the course.
Reached there with full enthusiasm and charged up. We were given individual rooms and were expected to live in total isolation No mobile phones, No internet connection, total cut off with the outside world.
I wanted some peace of mind and sit and stare at life!
Thought it would be a perfect place and indeed it was but then towards the end I missed my mother terribly.
The meditation done over there takes you deep within and you start realizing the truth beneath the surface level and that was the most beautiful feeling. Something just clicks inside you and you suddenly start getting answers for the questions asked from such a long time. Yes, it happens only with the mediation. To believe it you have to EXPEREINCE it.
My biggest achievement of the course was I stayed with a lizard for two days.I am so horrified of Lizards…!!Now, that’s a real achievement!
And I also spotted a snake in the garden! Shit…!! I was scared to death!!
On the seventh day, I could just not resist being away from my family and I realized how often we take our dear ones so much for granted. I knew in return its only my parents missing me the most. I was missing fighting with my brother and was missing playing with my nephew. Only three more days were left in the course but at that moment all I wanted was to talk to my mom! How silly could I be!
I had loved the course so far but three more days I could not stay!
I convinced myself that sometime later I will complete ten days and left from there on the seventh day!
So seven days of Silence and a lifetime remembrance.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Bob Dylan Is GOD!!!
Its approx 2 to 3 years back that I was just chatting with a friend and he just shared the lyrics of this song called blowing in the wind.
I read the lyrics and that was one of the best piece of poetry I read. I was so overjoyed to listen to this song. I immediately searched this song on you tube and felt in love with this song. For some weeks I heard this song almost daily. It had become like my national anthem. Without listening to this song I could not start my work. And the more I heard this song it just went through me like a thread through a needle. It’s got so deep and raw lyrics.
And the lyric of this song goes like this:
Blowin' In The Wind
How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
Yes, 'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
How many years can a mountain exist
Before it's washed to the sea?
Yes, 'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, 'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, 'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
Now,is’nt that just beautiful. Then I started digging for his songs and got a list of his songs. And his songs serve as a medicine to my mood .The only soothing balm and cure to my heartaches.:).
One more beautiful song which a beautiful imagery and I heard it for hundreds of time was; Its all over now,baby blue.
I want to paint in reference to the lyrics of this song but don’t know when I will do the same.
You must leave now, take what you need, you think will last.
But whatever you wish to keep, you better grab it fast.
Yonder stands your orphan with his gun,
Crying like a fire in the sun.
Look out the saints are comin' through
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
The highway is for gamblers, better use your sense.
Take what you have gathered from coincidence.
The empty-handed painter from your streets
Is drawing crazy patterns on your sheets.
This sky, too, is folding under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
All your seasick sailors, they are rowing home.
All your reindeer armies, are all going home.
The lover who just walked out your door
Has taken all his blankets from the floor.
The carpet, too, is moving under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
Leave your stepping stones behind, something calls for you.
Forget the dead you've left, they will not follow you.
The vagabond who's rapping at your door
Is standing in the clothes that you once wore.
Strike another match, go start anew
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
Its said that Dylan sings this song of undergoing changes in his life.
For me it acts for draining my emotions in form of music.For me the song potrays on moving on in life and excepting the change in a very suttle manner.
He just pours his heart out. There’s just no mendaciousness and hypocrisy in it.Its just plainly good. raw and honest lyrics justifying the feelings one goes through.
So grateful to Bob Dylan. His songs make my heart so much lighter.
Other favorites are Lay lady lay, Hallelujah, Knocking On Heavens Door, Like A Rolling Stone, Rainy day women, butterfly kisses etc.
I don’t know why the young generation doesn’t appreciate his kinda music.
His music is just heard by the oldies.
Doesn’t matter for me Bob Dylan Is God in music.:).
I read the lyrics and that was one of the best piece of poetry I read. I was so overjoyed to listen to this song. I immediately searched this song on you tube and felt in love with this song. For some weeks I heard this song almost daily. It had become like my national anthem. Without listening to this song I could not start my work. And the more I heard this song it just went through me like a thread through a needle. It’s got so deep and raw lyrics.
And the lyric of this song goes like this:
Blowin' In The Wind
How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
Yes, 'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
How many years can a mountain exist
Before it's washed to the sea?
Yes, 'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, 'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, 'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.
Now,is’nt that just beautiful. Then I started digging for his songs and got a list of his songs. And his songs serve as a medicine to my mood .The only soothing balm and cure to my heartaches.:).
One more beautiful song which a beautiful imagery and I heard it for hundreds of time was; Its all over now,baby blue.
I want to paint in reference to the lyrics of this song but don’t know when I will do the same.
You must leave now, take what you need, you think will last.
But whatever you wish to keep, you better grab it fast.
Yonder stands your orphan with his gun,
Crying like a fire in the sun.
Look out the saints are comin' through
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
The highway is for gamblers, better use your sense.
Take what you have gathered from coincidence.
The empty-handed painter from your streets
Is drawing crazy patterns on your sheets.
This sky, too, is folding under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
All your seasick sailors, they are rowing home.
All your reindeer armies, are all going home.
The lover who just walked out your door
Has taken all his blankets from the floor.
The carpet, too, is moving under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
Leave your stepping stones behind, something calls for you.
Forget the dead you've left, they will not follow you.
The vagabond who's rapping at your door
Is standing in the clothes that you once wore.
Strike another match, go start anew
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.
Its said that Dylan sings this song of undergoing changes in his life.
For me it acts for draining my emotions in form of music.For me the song potrays on moving on in life and excepting the change in a very suttle manner.
He just pours his heart out. There’s just no mendaciousness and hypocrisy in it.Its just plainly good. raw and honest lyrics justifying the feelings one goes through.
So grateful to Bob Dylan. His songs make my heart so much lighter.
Other favorites are Lay lady lay, Hallelujah, Knocking On Heavens Door, Like A Rolling Stone, Rainy day women, butterfly kisses etc.
I don’t know why the young generation doesn’t appreciate his kinda music.
His music is just heard by the oldies.
Doesn’t matter for me Bob Dylan Is God in music.:).
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Shall we Dance.
I loved Richard Gere in this film.
And have seen this film a few times and I always await for two three scenes. One of them is when as Beverly Clark(Susan Sarandon ) is trying to find out why is John Clark(Richard Gere)
behaving weirdly. She suspects him to have an extra marital affair. She thinks her marriage is gone for a toss!
And while conversing with a detective she says the following dialogues:
Why do you think people get married? It’s because we need a witness to our lives. There are a billion people on the planet, what does any one life really mean?But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things.All of it. All of the time. Every day.You’re saying “Your life will not go un-noticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness, “Beverly Clark, Shall We Dance (2004)
Now, this is so beautiful and so perfectly said.*clap*clap*
She delivered the dialogue too with great efficiency.
And have seen this film a few times and I always await for two three scenes. One of them is when as Beverly Clark(Susan Sarandon ) is trying to find out why is John Clark(Richard Gere)
behaving weirdly. She suspects him to have an extra marital affair. She thinks her marriage is gone for a toss!
And while conversing with a detective she says the following dialogues:
Why do you think people get married? It’s because we need a witness to our lives. There are a billion people on the planet, what does any one life really mean?But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things.All of it. All of the time. Every day.You’re saying “Your life will not go un-noticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness, “Beverly Clark, Shall We Dance (2004)
Now, this is so beautiful and so perfectly said.*clap*clap*
She delivered the dialogue too with great efficiency.
And other scene is when Jennifer Lopez teaching a form of dance named Rumba
And she says:
Paulina: The rumba is the vertical expression of a horizontal wish. You have to hold her, like the skin on her thigh is your reason for living. Let her go, like your heart's being ripped from your chest. Throw her back, like you're going to have your way with her right here on the dance floor. And then finish, like she's ruined you for life.
Beautiful Film. Richard Gere looks as handsome as ever. :)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Diamond On a Grass.
Lets stop the game,
of love ,
lust and liars.
Where the,
sellers themselves,
are being the buyers.
Its my,
breathing existence,
not some thing immune,
I aint a puppet,
who will dance to ur tune.
Soon will I realize,
as time will pass,
it wasnt a diamond,
but a dewdrop on a grass.
May be being emotional,
doesn't serve you your bread,
but if living without it,
you are already dead.
Its the great joy of knowing you,
that suppresses the sorrow,
How I wish,
You wernt empty and hollow.
of love ,
lust and liars.
Where the,
sellers themselves,
are being the buyers.
Its my,
breathing existence,
not some thing immune,
I aint a puppet,
who will dance to ur tune.
Soon will I realize,
as time will pass,
it wasnt a diamond,
but a dewdrop on a grass.
May be being emotional,
doesn't serve you your bread,
but if living without it,
you are already dead.
Its the great joy of knowing you,
that suppresses the sorrow,
How I wish,
You wernt empty and hollow.
I shall be gone!!!
When you get time to see,
I shall not look back again,
I shall be gone.
When you yearn to listen,
I will be empty of words,
I shall be gone.
So many unfilled days,
fills me with,
No hopes,
No expectations.
Nothing expected,
Nothing accepted.
I shall be gone,
I shall be gone.
I am glad feelings faded,
No return to the land,
Where I feel sick and jaded.
Promises wrecked,
can never be mended.
A partition,
mounting fissure,
can hardly be concealed.
Nothing expected,
Nothing accepted.
I shall be gone!!!
I shall be gone!!!
I shall not look back again,
I shall be gone.
When you yearn to listen,
I will be empty of words,
I shall be gone.
So many unfilled days,
fills me with,
No hopes,
No expectations.
Nothing expected,
Nothing accepted.
I shall be gone,
I shall be gone.
I am glad feelings faded,
No return to the land,
Where I feel sick and jaded.
Promises wrecked,
can never be mended.
A partition,
mounting fissure,
can hardly be concealed.
Nothing expected,
Nothing accepted.
I shall be gone!!!
I shall be gone!!!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Unfulfilled dream in a dream.
Its different forms of a same woman depicting various emotions. I tried using bright colors like blue; red and orange to show a shady emotion like a flashing smile on the face could be a reason of suppressing pain. As every painting is; it is a visual representation or objectification of a feeling. It was a great stress reliever for me. It was one of the beautiful art experience; when your just one with the painting and nothing around you really matters. And I realized; that it so truly said; what a poor life without painting!!
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